I know what people are thinking. I can already hear it now actually.
“It must be the summer holidays because they’re bothering with that bloody site again!” and you’re right, it is the summer holidays and I am bothering with the site again! It’s been a long time since the 2FM were active. I know that Jock continues to wrestle and does his bit in the gym but I haven’t had much weight loss discussion with him for many months. As great as the 2FM was, both of us had real lives that took over and our updates became few and far between.

In the past year things have changed a lot for me. I worked out with a personal trainer (Pat Quinn – brilliant) I lost an absolute shed load of weight doing that then real life did that thing where it sneaks up on you and hits you with a complete bombshell…my grandad passed away and for the weeks/months that followed that, I just gave up. Eating healthily and attending the gym were two things that just didn’t appear on my radar. My head was so far up my arse that I just ate crap constantly. As weeks away from the gym became months, I needed to do something. I needed to return. Eventually, I went back to the gym but didn’t really take it seriously. I plodded around, got a bit sweaty then got a takeaway on the way home. It was around March/April that I discovered the LDNM Cutting Guide. If you’re new to fitness or just fancy a routine to follow, get it! It’s brilliant and I began to lose weight quickly, increase strength and just feel fit again. In classic Jordan style though, nothing lasts forever and yet again I just gave up.

I sit here now at a solid 103.8kg (16st 4lb) and it’s the heaviest I’m going to get. I can’t do it to myself anymore. I eat crap then feel crap. I moan about it then eat more crap to make myself feel better. It’s a vicious cycle that I need to break and now! August 2017 is the month that I start to make the changes again. I know that losing weight is a lifestyle change. It’s something I have done before and can do again. I know there’ll be knock backs, there’ll be days that it’s hard and I don’t want to do it but I know I have to! The end of term chocolate box is still full, the sweets are still around but I can’t eat them, I just can’t. One bar of chocolate becomes two, two becomes three and then by that point I’m on Just-Eat planning my tea. Today is the day that I make the jump again.

I’ll be aiming to keep the site updated regularly. In my mind if I’m putting the numbers out there, even if nobody reads them, then I’m accountable to somebody. I think I miss that about having a PT. I miss having someone check on me, having somebody that I have to send the numbers to who’ll keep me determined…so I’ll just put them on here and my instagram (@thebearfitness)  page for anybody to see.